Categoria: Thoughts

  • Being Consistent

    Consistency is not an ability you develop from one day to the other. Is something you learn day by day. Is an ability you gain by trusting yourself and your choices. Not every day it will be easy.

  • Battling Depression

    More than one year ago, my therapist told me I had 80% of the energy a non-depressed person would have. I didn’t believe her. Why on heart should that be possible? How was I so low in energy? But then.. Then I began to realise it was actually true. Doing…

  • Changes in life

    Hi. The past few days were a bit difficult for me. Since yesterday, I started a new journey, I’m working part-time and I’m a part-time student. So, I prepared everything I needed to make a fresh and a good start. I tidied my study room, I bought the last thing…

  • Different road

    I tend to be a perfectionist, in everything I do. I tend to overcomplicate stuff, to precisely follow direction. When something gets to me differently than expected, I panic. I have an obsession in planning every moment of my life so nothing can slip away. The real obsession is making…

  • Never be afraid of change

    Hello everyone. Today is the 5th of January. Almost three weeks has passed since my last post. I had lots of ups and downs and these has freaked me out. I needed a bit of time to further process my last diagnosis. It will arrive the moment in which I…

  • Reflection before diagnosis

    I feel a void in my stomach, I feel as if I am lost, again. I am waiting for this afternoon eagerly. I want my diagnosis. But, at the same time, I do not want that moment to come. It will mean that I will know more about myself and…

  • Mixed feelings

    The last past weeks were pretty though. Most of the time I did not how I got through the day. Now I have hope. Everyone told me that the healing process would have been a rollercoaster of emotions, and it is. But I’m trying to go through it. If you…

  • Waking up anxious

    Waking up for me its the worst part of the day. Is where everything started. Is where I start to doubt about my self-worthy. Negative thoughts literally kick me out, driving me insane. But why does it happen? Normally, it shall be the best part of the day. Is when…

  • Unwanted anxiety

    How does it feel enjoying the moment? What are the sensations when you are calm? I cannot answer to those questions. Most of the day I struggle against anxiety. I recognize it, I’m familiar to it. It starts only as a knot in then stomach. Then, thoughts began to emerge.…