When I was 13 years old I started to experience anxiety attacks. It was not pleasant at all. At that time I did not have a way to express those feelings, they lead only to confusing thoughts. I started to isolate from others, to detach from reality. My anxiety started to take advantage on me. I was no more able to distinguish between real thoughts and intrusive ones.

‘Beyond fear lies freedom’ is my motto, which is very self-explicative: once you have confronted and accepted your fear, you will be free. Free to live, free to experience, free to breathe. It is not an easy path, but you will learn to live differently, in a more authentic way, discovering your true self.

Why rigid mind? Because my mind is rigid by definition. I love schemas, I love to have everything under control. Either it is black or it is white for me, but not grey. Especially when it comes to relationships. When something slips away from my control, anxiety grew, and so does the detachment from reality.

For me living in a state where uncertainty is present is unbearable. It is easier if I can predict every steps of every movement and thought of anyone and any outcome of every possible situation. I did it since I was 12 years old. Recently, it lead me to depression. I felt like I was letting my life slipping away. I was more an observer than a protagonist of my life.

The choice of creating a blog, is to help people that, like me, face these difficulties every day. Or it could be for her/his relatives/friends to understand them.

If you are in a moment in life where you think you’re stuck, never ever for anything give up. Continue to fight, to breathe, to react. Now it may be difficult for you, because you are feeling hurt. But in the future you will be proud of yourself. And I will always be proud of you.