How does it feel enjoying the moment? What are the sensations when you are calm? I cannot answer to those questions. Most of the day I struggle against anxiety. I recognize it, I’m familiar to it. It starts only as a knot in then stomach. Then, thoughts began to emerge. Not every time they are related to an event. It seems like my mind cannot stay still. It must over think, over program, over predict. And I feel really really bad when I realize that anxiety is taking over my day. That another train of negative thoughts start in my mind in the middle of nothing. But it happens and I need to understand how to handle it, how to prevent it.

It has always happened to me. I think that I cannot be happy. That if I’m happy, something terrible will happen. That there is something I’m not thinking about that I must handle. That there is the urge to think about something otherwise something bad happens. But it is not so. In reality, not thinking about anything is fine. It allows you to remain calm, to focus on the present time. But it is hard to be mindful of your thoughts when your brain tries to focus on the past, future or possible problems.

Now, I’m learning that even though I do not overthink, things can go pretty good. That if I let go the obsessive thoughts, I’m able to handle situation. If I make a mistake, I’m able to cope with it. But, all those reasonings cost me a lot of energy. I’m not used not to have no thoughts inside my mind. But it is really really rewarding. It allows me to go through my day and really experience everything. It allows me to be active in my life and not passive. To decide what to do and what not to do. It allows me to stay in present time, and not wander between the past and the future.

It is not an easy path. But being mindful of your thoughts, of the present time allows you really to live, to enjoy life, to enjoy little things, to love life for what it is. It is not always easy, and sometimes your bad habits will emerge. This is normal, it is part of the journey. What you have to keep in mind is that it is temporary, it will pass. Don’t be hard on yourself. You are trying and that means everything. If you fail sometimes it doesn’t mean you haven’t grown. It means that you are trying so hard. Sometimes it happens that things do not go as we have thought they would. But this is part of life, and being able to cope with this unease scenarios mean that you are evolving. Be proud of yourself, always.

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