• Unable to control

    17/11/23 It has been a very though day. I was not able to carry out my daily routine. I got stuck at some point. I barely know why. I’m not able to control my mind. Am I going mad? I cannot answer to this question. Lately I had more downs than ups. I see the… Read more

  • Waking up anxious

    Waking up for me its the worst part of the day. Is where everything started. Is where I start to doubt about my self-worthy. Negative thoughts literally kick me out, driving me insane. But why does it happen? Normally, it shall be the best part of the day. Is when everything start. Is when you… Read more

  • Change of plan

    29/10/23 Suddenly, I had to drive for more than one hour tomorrow for a birthday. It takes place in a city far away from mine. The thoughts of driving scare the hell out of me. ‘You are not good at driving. What if something does happen and you are driving? What if they do discover… Read more

  • My diagnosis

    Today the therapist gave me my diagnosis. The outcome is that I have a mixed anxiety-depressive disorder with obsessive thoughts. I felt like the world was weighting so much on my shoulder that I could barely breathe. But, this diagnosis makes actually sense to me: I was (and partially am) depressed and I had a lot… Read more

  • Day after the diagnosis

    31/10/23. Today is day after I got my diagnosis. It seems like I do not have the strength to cope with what I have inside. I used to experience those kind of sensations when my depression was at its peak. A part of me is really hurting. Like I need badly to stay in bed.… Read more

  • Unwanted anxiety

    How does it feel enjoying the moment? What are the sensations when you are calm? I cannot answer to those questions. Most of the day I struggle against anxiety. I recognize it, I’m familiar to it. It starts only as a knot in then stomach. Then, thoughts began to emerge. Not every time they are… Read more