• Different road

    I tend to be a perfectionist, in everything I do. I tend to overcomplicate stuff, to precisely follow direction. When something gets to me differently than expected, I panic. I have an obsession in planning every moment of my life so nothing can slip away. The real obsession is making me sad. Sad because life… Read more

  • Never be afraid of change

    Hello everyone. Today is the 5th of January. Almost three weeks has passed since my last post. I had lots of ups and downs and these has freaked me out. I needed a bit of time to further process my last diagnosis. It will arrive the moment in which I will share it with you… Read more

  • Reflection before diagnosis

    I feel a void in my stomach, I feel as if I am lost, again. I am waiting for this afternoon eagerly. I want my diagnosis. But, at the same time, I do not want that moment to come. It will mean that I will know more about myself and it scares me. From one… Read more

  • Amsterdam trip – day one

    I know, I have not written for a while. I spent really though weeks. I struggled a lot with my mental health till I had no air to breathe. I felt like my body was hunted by someone who was not me. I had several crisis and I started to doubt about myself, about my… Read more

  • Mixed feelings

    The last past weeks were pretty though. Most of the time I did not how I got through the day. Now I have hope. Everyone told me that the healing process would have been a rollercoaster of emotions, and it is. But I’m trying to go through it. If you feel the same way as… Read more

  • Source of joy

    Today I will start a new tutoring journey. It has given me lots of positive energies. Normally, I would have had difficulty in waking up and carrying out my daily routine. Today, I was up from 6 a.m. It is a strange sensation. Better, it is a sensation I had not felt for a very… Read more